BiAr aKu peRgI...

ASSALAMUALIKUM....

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn’t want us to burn out
I didn’t come here to hurt you now
I can’t stop

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you’ll find another
That doesn’t always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn’t keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

I’m already gone
I’m already gone
You can’t make it feel right
When you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone
Already gone
There’s no moving on
So I’m already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, Oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

I’m already gone
I’m already gone
You can’t make it feel right
When you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone
Already gone
There’s no moving on
So I’m already gone…

BIAR AKU PERGI DRI TEROS MERINDUINYER......
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SeAdAnyA AkU....

Tak dapat ku kotakan
Seperti yang sudah-sudah Bagai memetik butir bintang
Yang jauh tampak terang
Tak sanggup ku mungkir dalam sayang

Tak mampu ku berikan
Mimpi di luar jangkauan
Terimalah yang setulusnya
Aku di depan mata
Seadanya aku manusia

Aku peraih kasih sayang
Rindu pada ketulusan belaian
Engkau yang mendamaikan rasa ragu
Dengan cinta tak seperti dulu
Istana yang ku bina
Biarpun kali kedua
Terimalah yang setulusnya
Aku di depan mata
Seadanya aku manusia

Aku peraih kasih sayang
Rindu pada ketulusan belaian
Engkau yang mendamaikan rasa ragu
Dengan cinta tak seperti dulu
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knapew..apew salah aku??redha??huhu!!

aku rsew keliru..aku x tahu apew yang aku lakukan..kkadang aku mencari di manew silapnyer diri aku niew?
kkdang aku mencari ke mana pergi nyer hidayah allah untuk aku??aku jdik runsing..adkah niew ujian allah untuk aku??kalo aku yang diuji sbegini aku redha..bersabarlah sayang...bab aku tahu d sbalik kesushan pasti akn ada ksenangan..tol x??tpi aku leh than kew ujian bsar niew??pasti kew aku akn rdha akan ujian niew??pasti kew??
~
lpewkan ujian allah untuk aku 2..aku rdha jerk smua takdir untuk aku 2..
huhuhu...btol kew bilew kitew sayang owang u ktew akan diuji?tpi tol kew ujian u akan wat huban kitew u akn kkal atau akan brakhir cam u jerk??aku sayang dier..cam korang sayang owang yang korag sayang u...kitew samew..tpi knapew korang x d uji cam aku??ad sesiapew yang leh bg jwapan untuk dsoalan u??ada??=(
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huhuhuhuhu!!!!!!!

aku sayang dier!!!!

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aku!!!!!

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Rindu Terhenti


Telahku tinggalkan
Memori Silamku itu
Tidak ku biarkan
Hidupku dibelit pilu

Walaupun duka menampar dada
Walau sepi mencalar hati
Rindu ku terhenti

Ku pinggirkan sayu
Yang merundum kalbuku
Kasih dulu ku biar berlalu

Ku pinggirkan lara
Yang bertaut di jiwa
Ku teruskan hidup tanpa dia

Padam nyala patah tumbuh
Hilangkan berganti (x mungkin berganti)
cinta tiba, cinta pergi
Biar di asal ku nanti

Ku lupakan mu jua di sini
Sedang kau pergi menjauhi

ingat lagu niew ingat kat dier..niew lagu febret dier...huhuhu...ntah napew lagu niew yang dier mnat an??aku pown x tau..
tapi lagu niew mmang wat aku rindu giler kat dier...
windu ssangat...!!!!!!!!
tpi ntah apew yang dier rasew??
aku niew BODOH* an?????
BODOH* ssangat...
bak katew kkawan aku..
napew dier??
knapew aku plih dier??
napew??
mybe sbab aku BODOH* kwot...
hahaha....
aku BODOH*...

and orang BODOH* niew lah yang slalu dperBODOH* an kan??
knapew??
bab aku BODOH*!!!!!!!!
bbbbbbbbboooooooodddddddddddoooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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baiK2....

Aku tak ingin kau menangis bersedih

Sudahi air mata darimu
Yang aku ingin arti hadir diriku
Kan menghapus dukamu sayang

Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku
Dengarkan dengarkan aku

Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupku
Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu
Hanya satu pintaku di siang dan malammu
Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu

Semua keinginan akan aku lakukan
Sekuat semampuku sayang
Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku
Dengarkan dengarkan aku
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haTI oH HatI..

ASSALAMUALAIKUM....
akU,dIer aND aLLh....
hati niew sdeh!!!!
bkan krana dtinggalkan...
bkan kerana dkecewekan...
ntah apew slapnyer kat ati niew smpai aku diperlakukan sperti niew....
oleh i2..
hati ini sdang mencari ktenangan d tengah kkusutan emosi...
mencari konklusi bagi satu jwpan yang pasti..
namun..
jawapan i2 x pasti lagi..
tpi ia pasti akn dpat dcari..
jawpan..jwpan..oh!!jwapan..

mencri jwapan d tengah kkustan mmang mnyulitkan..
oleh i2 stu jlan glap harus dlalui...
wlaupon tkot untuk menghadapinyer,aku knew truskan perjalanan niew..
pasti d hujung nanti akan ada jawpannyer kelak...
btol x??

aku ingin thu ape yang dier rasew..
aku ingin tahu apew yang dier pkirkan..
samada samew atau x dgan apew yang aku rasew and pkirkan..
dier ikhlas x??
dier rasew x apew yang aku rasew??
dier wat x janji2 dier kat aku 2??
huhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

but...
kkadang aku tkot untok tahu apew jwpannyer nanti..
adkah jawpannyr akn wat aku..
menages karana gmbira...
atau..
menages kerana kcewe..
???

Just..
aKu,dIEr And allH..
jerk yang akan tahu jwpannyer...
=(
=)
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AkU JaDiK keLirU!!

assalamualaikum...
huhuhu..
hati aku keliru..
keliru dgan apew yang aku lkukan niew..
btOl kew slah..??
2 yang wat aku kliru..
aku tau bende u slah but aku x de plihan lain..
aku dpengaruhi hati dan nafsu jaht aku..
ke manew ilangnyer AMIRUL yang dlu??
aku nrndukan dier..
aku bertambah kliru..
mungkin hatiku x skuat and stabah owang laen..
but..
aku try untk tbahkan ati aku 2..
coz..
fkiran x bleh mengawal dri..
tkOt nanti memakan diriew...
tOl x??
huhuhu...

and hati aku kliru..
tentang Owang yang aku SYANG ssangat..
btOl kew dier menganggap bende yang smew sperti manew aku mnganggap dier..??
blew aku bertnyer dier mngatakan YA..
namun Owang d skelilingku meraguinyer...
2 yang wat ku kliru...
aku try nak wat dier brubah..
aku x nak tgOk Owang yang aku syang u jdik insan yang x bergunew kpd agame bangse and untuk smuanyer...
aku nak dier sdar yang aku anggap dier dah lbeh dri sorang kawan..
aku dah anggap dier cam fmily aku dah..
aku syang sngat at dier...
tpi dier??
ntah ar..
huhuhu...
blew aku mengatakan bhwa aku nak pergi dri dier,dier akn mghalangnyer..
tpi knapew??
knapew halang aku sdangkan aku bkan sapew2 bgi dier..
aku tau aku x akan dapt mninggalkan dier...
dier dh cama adeq aku...
tpi aku kliru!!!
dier anggap aku niew apew??
PLEASE TOLONG AKU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tlong k...
aku x tau nak wat pew dah..
aku tOl2 kliru...
YA ALLAH...
tlOng hambe mu ini ya ALLAH...
kau brikanlah aku ptunjuk Mu ya ALLAH..
huhuhu...
=(
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ASSLAMUALAIKUM....
huhhhh!!!!
aku pan x tau apew yang aku nak taip kat cniew...
apew yang aku rasew cam dh x leh nak dluahkan...
hati cdeh sngat..!!
adew owang katew..
kalo ktew ketawe pd siang ari..
mlam pasti ktew akan mnanges..tol kew??
ntah a..kalo ktew prcyer bnde 2 leh mngkfurkan ktew..
now juz anggap bnde 2 sbagai kten2an ALLAH...
bab stiap kali aku ktawe d siang ari,mlam 2 kkdang akan wat aku mnanges..huhuhu...
2 smua khendak ALLAH kan...so as hambenyer aku eccept it's..
i had to be strong...
huhuhu...
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sTorY...Me??

assalamualaikum...
8 hari tlah dlalui dlam tahun niew...
syulur pada mu ya ALLAH krana dgan limpah kurnianmu dpat alu bernafas and mneruskan ibadah d dunia mu yang fana ini ya ALLAH..thanks alot...ALHAMDULILLAH...
Its just 8 days and many things happend...huhu...
dgan msalah kat tmpat keje nyer..
ngan masalah hati yang x berksudhan..
ngan maslah adeq yang belum berakhir(mntx2 x..AMIN..)...
ngan masalah kekecewaan dan mengecewekan...
huhuhu....
so tbahkan hati niew k....
assobru minal iman...
wat kkawan miss you so much!!!!!!
i luv u all...(excep mreka yang amat mngecewakan...)huhuhu....jeng3..siapew???
lu pikirlah sndiri...
he3...
assalamualaikum...
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assalakualaikum...niew nak kongsi 1 ctew yang sngat mnarik....1st time aku bcer aku menanges..pngalaman seorang saudara baru kitew....moge critew niew mnjdi tauladan wat ktew k...hu3...

"Assalamualaikum to my fellow sisters and brethrens, who will be one of the occupants in Jannah, insyaAllah. First of all, this is a letter that I composed to all viewers. A letter full of my real thoughts and dwellings, a letter of hope and pain, a letter of almost the truth. So here goes nothing.


Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

Dear brothers and sisters,

The thing that triggered me to write such a letter is a post, that I read on someone’s blog. It reminded me, well, of about everything. Every single thing that I worked for, every single thing that I fought for. Yes, my story had started long enough, ever since I was back in high school.

2007....

My friend was fasting. I felt excited because I tried fasting too and it’s in the fasting month, yes, I remembered it well. I followed my Muslim friends where I woke up early for sahur and break my fast at Maghrib. I was doing it because I thought it would be fun and why not, since I was dead eager to know how it’s like.

Until one day, still in that month, my Muslim friend told me, though hesitant, something regarding the fact that I’m fasting. It broke my heart and it took me ages to recover and I nearly feel angered. Know what she told me?

“Ko tau tak yang ko puasa ni ko tak dapat pape? Macam kitorang, kitorang dapat pahala, tapi ko dapat lapar je.” To which I retort “Xpela, aku saje je, takkan x boleh?” Though the way she said it seems harsh, but it’s the truth.

And that got me thinking.
I thought about it every single night before I slept, to which I held up the palms of my hand facing my face and hoped silently that Allah hears my prayer, which is “Please Ya Allah, please grant only this, eventhough I’m still not a Muslim, please Ya Allah, please grant this prayer. I really want to be a Muslim. Ease my journey towards becoming a Muslim.”


And afterwards I would cry, because I was really hoping, that somehow, Allah let it easy for me, and grant that prayer.

And Alhamdulillah, now, I AM a Muslim.
Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.. And I will never stop saying it, because I was really thankful.

The feeling was like, as if someone just saved you from a tragic death, or from drowning. Yes, I was drowning back then. I was flailing my arms desperately, for someone to save me, and Allah did. SubhanAllah...

I was saved, my brothers and sisters, I was saved.

Dear brothers and sisters,
Do you not know how much pain it caused me? How many tears are shed because of this journey I chose? Do you?

It was so difficult for me to trust the right person, because not everyone can understand. I was pained when you left me when I’m in need. I was stressed up when I couldn’t get my iqra’ right. You say, be patient, take it slowly. But if you are in my position, how can I take it slowly?

I need to know everything in a short period of time because once I’m back at home, it’s over. I have to go undercover even with my own family and I couldn’t learn anymore, not live like I do here.

Usrah? That is going to be impossible once I’m back to my family’s side. I felt oppressed enough when I couldn’t wear the hijab and how do you think I would feel when I can’t do the rest??

To this, I have something to say, appreciate your freedom of performing your prayers, cherish your jamaah prayers with your family, value the freedom of wearing the hijab because there are other people who has great difficulty even to say Bismillah in front of their own family.

I felt pity to those who had the knowledge but don’t apply them. I felt sick when I think of them who claimed to be free when they don’t want to abide. It might anger some people when I wrote this, but keep in mind, this is my blog, this is a piece of my mind, and I have been keeping this inside long enough.

I hope, this post might open your eyes on the revelation of the anxiety that feeds on me day by day. You say I’m cruel when I kept this a secret from my parents. Cruel? I’m not doing it to save myself, I just can’t bring myself to hurt them. Hurting them is the last thing that I want to do. Only Allah knows how tempted I am to tell them, each day, but the thing holding me back is the thought of my parents being hurt and sad because of me, their first child and only daughter.

Do you know how much I hate myself for keeping this a secret? And you tell me that I’m heartless and I was being selfish. To calm myself, I kept thinking, only Allah knows, only Allah knows, over and over again.

Offended? Think of how much I was offended first. For those, my true friends, who helped me a lot, who didn’t leave me when I’m in need, who stayed by my side when I’m in my most vulnerable state, thank you for not leaving me all alone.

Ever since I’ve embraced Islam, I never felt this way. This feeling is, how should I say it, is very genuine. It feels like pure love. What I meant is that, I never thought that I could love somebody this way.

Islam taught me that love isn’t only meant to be all that lovey-dovey stuff, but it taught me about ukhuwwah, it taught me about love amongst Muslims, and it helped me a lot.

Ever since I became a Muslim, my relationship with my friends became better, and I’ve opened my eyes to see that there are a lot of people who are willing to help me for the sake of the religion. I’ve never felt this way and plus, my relationship between my family members improved and I was so thankful for that.

I never thought that one day, I would be talking about mundane things with my mum, because before, if I were to call home, our conversation would normally revolve around my academic well-beings, my financial status and all that serious stuff. My family were never like real families. We’re academic-based and my parents were so strict about it.

But now, ever since I learnt that Islam taught us that we should obey our parents, never raise your voice when talking and etc., and I applied it whenever I’m having conversation with my mum and my mum kind of, soften up a little bit and started being buddies with her only daughter, that is me.

I felt so blessed with this gift, that is the journey of being a Muslim. I never met people that love each other, not because of money, not because they’re pretty and all that, but because of Allah, and that amazes me most. I was so overwhelmed with my founding that I felt calm and tranquil.

The thing that I enjoy most of being a Muslimah is that :
1) I get to go to usrah
2) I get to go to “tautan ukhuwwah” programmes
3) I get to wear the hijab and be protected from unauthorized eyes
4) I get to fast and experience the happy sensation of breaking fast afterwards
5) Etc. Etc. Etc.

I love my new life, I love the new me. Yet, somehow, certain people can’t resist of making my life miserable. Well, that’s life. But I have a new target in life now.

Last but never the least, Dear brothers and sisters, especially those who are also in the journey towards Jannah, To those who worked their bones just for Allah, keep it up. It is people like you that inspire the others to follow your lead, eventually.

I have high respect to those who can still take care of themselves, be it physically or mentally, but most importantly, spiritually. With that, let’s all become a professional Muslim and insyaAllah, one day, one of us or more might bring change to this world polluted with secularism, corruption and hedonism.

To end this post, this a special song that I dedicated to all of you... Kembali by Far East..
 

 
Ya Allah... Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Pemurah,

Terangilah ku dengan nur iman-Mu,
Hanya Engkau tempat aku berserah,
Mohon maghfirah di dalam syahdu...

Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih,
Ampunilah segala dosaku,
Laksana buih di laut memutih,
Hanyut ditelan gelombang nafsu...

Hari-hari yang telah aku lalui,
Inginku tinggalkan terus bersemadi,
Ingin aku, kembali kepada fitrah insani,
Tak sanggupku jelajahi rimba duniawi,
Bebaskanlah diriku dari dibelenggu,
Dosa noda nafsu durjana...

Terimalah taubatku Ya Allah,
Pimpinlah daku ke jalan redhaMu,
Moga sinarMu terangi hidupku,
Di dalam kegelapan...

Aku kan kembali padaMu rabbi,
MenghadapMu Ya Rabbul Izzati,
Segala ketentuanku pasrahkan,
Di hujung penghayatan... "


bersyukurlah kitew k...kitew ptut bangga 4 being muslim...
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MuAh..

assalamualaikum...
hu3...rsew sdeh lak bab dh tinggalkan zman prskolahan...hu3...rsew wndu ssangat at smua kkawan ngan ckgu2 kt skolah...hu3..dlu time2 skolah x sabo nak abes..niew dh abes rsew cam nak skolah ag..hu3..plek2...tpi bnde 2 a yang akan smua dak2 lpasan skolah akan rasew..tpi lnyataan nyer ktowang dh abes skolah...nak wat cm new an..wat amu kkawan luv u all...aku sayng korang au..hu3..(ngah nanges niew)...jangan lpewkan prshabtan ktew au...frien 4 eva..MmMMmmUuUUUUUAaAAAAhhhHHhhhH!!!!!
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aKu sAyAnG KoWaNg aNd DieR!!!!!!!
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EpY NeW yEaR.....

assalamualaikum...
he3...epy new year...wat smua kkwan and smua yang mgenali dri niew k...
thun bru azam pun bru lah k!!!try untuk crik smthing yang lbeh baek untuk sri kitew niew..naver dive up k..
jia you..

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